Answer.... When you forget your stinkin Password!!
Okay, so here it is 2010, not January but February 2...so I already am behind from what I said I would do this year! In this transition season my desire has been to be Productive..Move Forward...Press into New things..and I have found myself many times...Stuck..just Stuck...no great revelations coming forth..3-4 hr. writing blocks...and very little or nothing or totally sidetracked...distracted..The house is so quiet..perfect day...and suddenly I can't believe I haven't wiped down the baseboards in forever...or my closet so needs organizing.. or maybe this is the day I should attempt that abstract on canvas I've been wanting to do(who am I kidding) or the gym or shopping( yeah i know this really doesn't produce anything, but provides an escape!!... I've got to DO something..PRODUCE something!
I'm used to and very comfortable PRODUCING...Producing something...Out There...On a Stage..a Worship service..an Easter Musical..a Christmas Play.. a Song...Something that can be measured to some degreee by it's Product! I would put so much time..passion.. push...desire..energy into that thing Out There I was Producing..Now God is asking.."Can you put that same passion and desire into letting Me Produce IN you for a Yield or Harvest that is even more Fruitful? Can you put that same passion and desire into Resting and Being..when man isn't Driving it and Driving you? Can your Desire become to internally Produce in a New way that isn't about what someone sees on Stage?"
This isn't about never doing those things I love to do ever again...but it is about Sitting before Him..Resting..Trusting..Healing...Forgiving...Loving.. and Forgiving..over and over...I think that's what He's after...that kind of Fruit..and me resting...and out of that He will Produce something really Beautiful.
I challlenge all of us to Press into Him..not the Pressure to Produce...that will all come..even in the process.. it will come...and start producing new life..purpose..things birthed...deams fulfilled..But when you're feelin the Pressure to DO..Press right back into Him to BE...
Okay, so I went longer than I intended..I'm working on it!
Pressing in,
Janna
